January Sum-Up

January has been a weird month. In one way, it has flown by and I can't believe it has been more than a month since Christmas. On the other hand, it has dragged on a bit. I dislike January a lot, for many reasons and this year has not been any different to the past 15 that I have endured. But anyway, here is my sum up of my favourite things and things that I can't believe have happened.

Favourite Songs?

I have completely adored a few songs this month. It has been quite a month in terms of music for me, as I have discovered so many songs and artists and rediscovered old ones. 

I have been loving Dodie Clar of DoddleOddle lately. I have a playlist on YouTube of all of her songs and covers she has done on YouTube and during my exam week, I listened to her constantly. Also, I have listened to the Fifty Shades of Grey soundtrack. This might sound a bit weird, but I can tell you from the bottom of my heart that it is the best soundtrack that I have ever listened to, for a film.

I have also loved Birdy and Adele, of course. I have been a fan of Adele for a long time and I am going to see her perform in March at the O2, which I am UBER excited for! Also, Birdy is a firm favourite because her music is so relaxing and you can listen to it, whatever mood you are in. You can cry to her songs, smile to her songs, be angry to her songs, whatever you feel like.

Favourite People?

My friend Maisie is one of them. If I am ever upset, worried, whatever, she is always there to calm me down and talk to me. I can always speak to her, wherever and whenever and she is just the most amazing person ever. She puts up with so much and she deserves everything possible. So thanks, Maz, if you are reading, I love you.

Also, Jemima (as always). Her blog has inspired me so much this month and she has put up some great content! Go and check her out!

Favourite Make-Up Product?
It has to be my either my Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer or my Clinique Eye Shadow Quad. Both these products have been my saviours lately and I love them both so much!

Favourite Drink?
Obviously tea?!? What do you take me for? Recently I have been loving Lady Grey tea. It is so relaxing but has caffeine in so I can drink it whenever and wherever, which is so nice! Also, I have loved Naked smoothies. I have been drinking the Red one a lot but my favourite is the green one! I feel so healthy when I drink them, which is so nice because when I am revising I seem to get quite unhealthy. It is all this comfort food!
Favourite Picture?
This one of the horizon as I walked to choir the other day.

What were your favourite things this month?
Stay happy,
Katie

Things That Make Me Smile

These are a few things that make me smile :)

1. My friends
2. My rabbit, Nugget
3. My sister
4. My family
5. A nice cup of tea
6. Singing
7. Playing the flute (I can't smile and play, but you know what I mean)
8. My blog
9. My room when it is tidy
10. A fresh duvet and pillow cover
11. A walk in the woods
12. Crisp leaves under my feet
13. A warm scented candle
14. A bath
15. Having a lie in
16. Buying new makeup
17. When an Amazon delivery arrives
18. Going abroad
19. Being on a plane
20. Eating dinner out
21. Soft hair
22. Swimming
23. When you see your favourite person
24. A storm when I am inside watching it
25. Shopping
26. Wearing new clothes
27. A message from a friend who is asking how you are
28. Seeing old friends
29. Meeting new friends
30. When you put a lipstick on perfectly

I was going to put up my everyday makeup routine but I am doing a video with it and I have a cold, which is extremely gross and I looked horrible, so I am waiting on that so I look better!

Stay happy,

Katie xx

That Heart Sinking Feeling

Recently, I have had many a time where I have expected something to be so good or something to be exactly as I would like, but it hasn't been. Then you get the feeling. That feeling where your heart moves 4 inches into you stomach because it isn't right and you are sad that maybe you can't do anything about, or you just aren't happy with it.

For example, when you come to school and then your favourite person isn't there. They may have texted you or they may not have done, but they aren't there all day or maybe even all week and you still have to live through it, with the fact that there is a person-shaped hole in the day. Like when your friend is ill and you want to tell them something in a lesson or make a joke, but you can't because it was between you and them and they aren't there.

Or when you get so excited about something because it is going to be such a good day but then something happens like the person you dislike tags along or you go for a shorter amount of time than you had thought you would be there for. But then you shrug it off, even though if you think about it, your heart sinks again.

Some days, my heart sinks so far that I think it might fall out because it has moved so far. Recently, with results and expectations so high, that feeling has become all too common and you have to step back and think about it in reality.

That person who you want to be there is on the other end of a phone, perhaps, if you need them. Or they might not be, so you write a card and get a friend to give it to them so that they know you are thinking of them. And that thing you are excited about will be just as fun, you just have to jump over the obstacle. Think about it like that and things might feel a bit better.

But sometimes, that person who you want to be there, isn't. And they never will be again. And as much as you look at photos of them and the memories of the happy times flood back, they will never be there to see you grow, to be proud of you. They may do up there, watching down on you, but they will never be by your side. And you cry and cry but you can't make it better. And it does get better.

I was watching a program the other day and there was a quote that said: "They might be gone forever, but they are never forgotten."
I'm going to leave it there because I know that I am welling up. I know that went deep, but I had to get my thoughts out onto paper and that is what my blog is about. Finding people who are feeling the same as me.

Stay happy,
Katie xx