August Goals 2016

When looking at my posts review recently, I realised that a lot of people seemed to enjoy reading my July goals, so I thought I would do an August one! Some will be similar but I hope you enjoy my plea at trying to make some small changes for the better in my life!

• To be able to nail the ukulele - I can play it now but to build up a repertoire that I can memorise and play when I want, where I want!
• To memorise my new mobile number - I still remember my old one (tough times)
• To organise my room for the forthcoming educational year
• Have everything ready to go to college
• Get a job (a must!)
• Save a bit of money every month
• Pay my friend for my Tom Odell ticket and organise our hotel
• Buy a new wall planner (mine finishes at the end of August)
• Find a new genre of music I like
• Get on top of my reading - I am not doing very well at the moment

I think that is all for the moment! It is a good start!

Stay happy,

Katie xx

Dear May...

Dear May,

Please be kind to me, during this hard time. I don't cope too well with stress and you seem to be the heart of it at the moment. Although I have support from some amazing people, but sometimes, I need the world to be kind. The phrase 'you're only human' has been floating around a lot recently, but sometimes, people don't remember that and they put a lot of stress onto us and we cannot achieve it at the best we can because of the pressure.

I hope you can get rid of this annoying illness I have got as well. I am sat on the sofa, feeling sorry for myself and that isn't great because I have so much to do!

Also, I hope that I can still be in the company of my friends and loved ones and have fun, even though I need to study hard to get these exams over with so I can move on and do greater things.

So although it is a short letter, May, please be helpful, kind and not too harsh on little old me.

Stay happy,
Katie xx

That Heart Sinking Feeling

Recently, I have had many a time where I have expected something to be so good or something to be exactly as I would like, but it hasn't been. Then you get the feeling. That feeling where your heart moves 4 inches into you stomach because it isn't right and you are sad that maybe you can't do anything about, or you just aren't happy with it.

For example, when you come to school and then your favourite person isn't there. They may have texted you or they may not have done, but they aren't there all day or maybe even all week and you still have to live through it, with the fact that there is a person-shaped hole in the day. Like when your friend is ill and you want to tell them something in a lesson or make a joke, but you can't because it was between you and them and they aren't there.

Or when you get so excited about something because it is going to be such a good day but then something happens like the person you dislike tags along or you go for a shorter amount of time than you had thought you would be there for. But then you shrug it off, even though if you think about it, your heart sinks again.

Some days, my heart sinks so far that I think it might fall out because it has moved so far. Recently, with results and expectations so high, that feeling has become all too common and you have to step back and think about it in reality.

That person who you want to be there is on the other end of a phone, perhaps, if you need them. Or they might not be, so you write a card and get a friend to give it to them so that they know you are thinking of them. And that thing you are excited about will be just as fun, you just have to jump over the obstacle. Think about it like that and things might feel a bit better.

But sometimes, that person who you want to be there, isn't. And they never will be again. And as much as you look at photos of them and the memories of the happy times flood back, they will never be there to see you grow, to be proud of you. They may do up there, watching down on you, but they will never be by your side. And you cry and cry but you can't make it better. And it does get better.

I was watching a program the other day and there was a quote that said: "They might be gone forever, but they are never forgotten."
I'm going to leave it there because I know that I am welling up. I know that went deep, but I had to get my thoughts out onto paper and that is what my blog is about. Finding people who are feeling the same as me.

Stay happy,
Katie xx

Inspirational Sittings

Do you ever sit down with your laptop on your lap or on the table in front of you and you suddenly have a moment of inspiration.

This could have been from something that you had watched, like a video with some amazing music, or listening to a playlist that you haven't heard before, discovering some music which makes your heart ever so slightly more joyful because it is so kick-ass that you feel like walking down a street and showing everyone how amazing your life actually is?

I get this every now and then and it makes me really happy. I get that little feeling of happiness in my heart which warms me and makes me feel really good about myself.

When I am feeling down and I want that inspirational moment, I listen to something which is amazing. At the moment, it is the Love Actually soundtrack because it is absolutely amazing. It is a lovely mixture of sad songs, happy songs, Christmas songs and pop songs which fits perfectly with my every mood.

It is almost like that feeling when you come home and you get nice and cosy and you just want to make some warm gingerbread and eat it in front of the fire whilst reading a good novel or flicking through Pinterest (which is me most days to be honest!)

Have you ever had an inspirational sitting?

Stay happy,
Katie xx

The True Meaning of Christmas

With only 5 days left until the big day, people are panicking about whether they have enough food to feed the 500, hoping they got the right sized jumper for Granny, aimlessly walking around shops, wishing they had an extra £5 to spend on that gift set that you have always wanted to get for that special person.

But why panic? I spoke to a friend the other day and they told me that they aren't panicking, because as long as they have something for feed that friend that pops in for a cuppa and as long as you have a nice time, nothing else should matter. You have what you have and you shouldn't worry about whether your present is going to be good or not, because people shouldn't judge you by your presents. They should be glad to have you there.

Christmas should be about family and love, but through the years, shop advertisements and peoples perceptions have changed and we now think that Christmas is about presents and who got the most expensive thing.

People who have family are lucky and we should cherish that. Stop wanting and maybe, start giving this Christmas.

Stay happy,
Katie xx